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Uncertain

2012-01-31T22:22:00.001+08:00

Venue: NZ with puteri
Mood : swing!
Status : tahla....

Ape yg x cukup?
Ape yg x kena?
Belom pape dah buat perangai...
Jangan hangat2 taik ayam..
Nanti dah tawar hati susah..

Tahla.....aku yg ada mslh ke?
Better be alone than having this uncertain feeling..

It marks an event..

2012-01-29T13:14:00.001+08:00

Yesterday marks an event...believe i myself created it...as i never had one before...not sure how long this date will last..lets just hope the best out of it.. I'allah... ;)

Too much

2012-01-24T09:14:00.001+08:00

Don't trust too much, don't hope too much, and don't love too much.

Because that TOO MUCH

can

hurt you SO MUCH.

Maybe to YOU I shall ask....

2012-01-23T22:13:00.003+08:00

Does it gets any better each day? Seriously saying, I dont think so....but being optimistic, I keep reminding myself, give some time...give some space...see how it goes....

I always like to make myself clear in anything I do, be it at work, home, or even love....I have tried my best to clarify what I like, what I expect, what I would do, what I wouldn't do, or what I will try not to do, in short, what you and me should tolerate with each other....but did I managed to make it clear? Did you actually accept what you should tolerate with me? I really dont know....at 1 point, I'm also not sure whether I myself should tolerate or not......but again..being optimistic and wouldn't want to pull myself just like that in no time, I once again swallow everything and try to keep my pace at a level where I think I shouldn't be doing....

Tahla......kinda confuse now...kinda sad as well....kinda get me thinking over and over, what would be the best approach I could take in this kind of situation...I just dont know.....Maybe to YOU I shall ask....Insyallah...

Mungkin nanti...

2012-01-23T01:00:00.001+08:00

Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri

**believe i hv posted this before,but this song always gives me good and bad memories...over a lot of things happened in my past....treasure the lyric,the music,and the feeling i hv each time i hear this song..

Sgt suka lagu ni......

2012-01-21T20:25:00.001+08:00

Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dari ku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hujan bawa air mata ku
Yang mengalir membasuh luka ku
Agar dia tahu ku terseksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Vain!

2012-01-21T12:09:00.001+08:00

Hahahaha..gmbr syok sendiri..sekian!

Lend me an ear...

2012-01-20T17:23:00.001+08:00

I need an ear...who listens to all my craps at anytime...let it a so called rubbish things i nag...

Can i have that?

Sigh...(been sighing since morning till now...;( ..)

Not in service

2012-01-19T23:59:00.001+08:00

"The number you have dialed is currently not in service. Thank you"

Tuut tuut tuuut....

Pms dtg lg!

2012-01-17T00:35:00.001+08:00

Dear readers..

Mind my stories....keadaan agk serba serbi skng...pms dtg lg...jd hati agak gundah gulana...jiwa kacau...serba serbi tak kena....mmg tapape...wpon bulan hnya akan mngambng di hujung bulan.,.tp cahaya di air dah jelas kelihatan..(ok merepek dah)

Skang sblm wa meroyan lebih lnjut...baek wa tdo...oo sblm tu..nk sembang ngn mr google jap...nk tnye dia pasal istikharah...nite all

Kenapa...

2012-01-15T18:39:00.001+08:00

Kenapa eh?

Mimpi!

2012-01-13T17:21:00.001+08:00

Semalam tah x semena2 aku mimpi yg tak diingini...tatau npe...but in tht dream it was all abt the happiness...mimpi plk psl new additions to the family plk tu....not 1 but 2...and happily the person updating me abt tht good news...wadefak sgt la kn....but ape2 pon...tht person deserves to b happy....

Sudahla...mls nk cite!

Dugaan

2012-01-13T17:17:00.001+08:00

Besar betol dugaan ku di dunia ni....serba serbi tak kena je...tah...harapkan hujan sampai ke ptg...eh pastu ape sambungan dia..entah entam!

Di dalam dilema KRU...tataula ape nk d pk kn wat ms ni....tp yg pasti keadaan agk sukar...besar betol dosa aku kt dunia ni allah bg dugaan demi dugaan dan jalan yg sukar...tahla....sigh...

Mengapa eh.....?

Sympton awal sgt

2012-01-09T22:40:00.001+08:00

Tataula...serba serbi x kna....sympton awl sgt rsnye....

Kdg2 rs mrh dgn diri sndiri bila time2 ceni muncul....i cant expect other ppl to understand me..

Sigh....

Too early to tell...but i wish the best out of it i'allah

2012-01-02T14:52:00.001+08:00

So far everything is looking good...i wud definitely say it is too early to say anything abt this...but i can see his sincerity...and i hope tht sincerity wud do good throughout...

I dont hope much out of it...i dont want a lovey dovey rship that ends nowhere (like i used to hv before)...i just hope both of us could work out on sumtin that would end up in marriage....

I wish to hv a very sincere rship...

It is a miracle indeed! ;)

2011-12-29T08:06:00.001+08:00

First thing in the morning today...i would so much like to express my syukur...i believe what was granted was the most anticipated thing i've been waiting for years...alhamdulilah.. ;)

I was remembering back my sorrow and darkest days where i barely could believe or i would say i barely wanted to believe to faith again in love...i was so much being sceptical to believe there's actually sumone for me who really is made for me...but then i knew,being a muslim,thts the thing i should do..to have faith in everything as anything good is actually coming from only HIM...then i realised i should start to believe...pray tht allah has had it all for me in place....have faith that allah knows wat is best for me...i prayed in each prayer...and i knew,wat was just happened last nite wud mean big...i'allah... ;)

Eventhough i guess it's too early to tell...but wat came in my life seems more promising than anything else...i now understand wat my fren once told me...when the miracle came...u wudnt believe wat had just happened (ok ni aku tambah sndiri kot,but she did mention abt miracle and for me to have faith in it...thanks nasrah...i started to have faith these past few months...and i know allah heard each of my prayer...amin amin ya rabbal allamin)

Today...i woke thinking tht i should b grateful with wat i have and soon to have... ;)

Typical..

2011-12-22T17:19:00.001+08:00

Being typical..it's a must to post this lyric....haha yea peeps...i am typical!

Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku

Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosaku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala dukaku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya ‘tuk cintaku

Bebi bebi (again tajuk xde kena mngena,jd sila jgn bc!)

2011-12-19T01:54:00.001+08:00

I dont wish to write again....friends do not like what i write...friends do not feel what i feel....

Hello readers out there....stop reading this blog...it is filled of sorrow...as much as i wanted to turn this blog into happy journal....i hv very limited fun things happening in life,hence it is still exist until today as boring and sad blog...

Lets switch to physical diary instead...shall we?

*korek diary zmn sek menengah...zmn crush kt org sana sini...haha how i wish i cn still hv tht youth in me...to just wanted to have the feeling of syok sendiri...haha..org yg kita crush tatau pon..

Mode : bebi bebi baru jumpa old crush kt nz...hhaha xla br sgt,few days ago..

Ombak jahaaaattttt (masih ingat iklan tersebut?)

2011-12-08T00:03:00.001+08:00

Ok...ini bukan entry ttg iklan...tp ttg movie yg hangat pung pang pung pang org dok ckp....cerita best! Pelakon best....meleleh air mata...sedih sedu sedan...aaa ni sume org la kata..hehe

So mmndngkn ramai sgt yg berkata2...and being supportive to our film industry,i decided to watch the movie la...def bkn sbb pelakon..but nk tgk sejauh mn improvement kita bleh buat dlm movie...lg2 movie yg diadaptasi dr novel yg melankolik...

Some bckground or sinopsis...it's abt true love between izah and harris...which pd mulanya started off with some bad incident (rogol merogol...hero jahat k!)..and then lama2 jatuh cinta saling syg menyayangi...plot ok...pngarah brjaya bwk the feel of reading a melancholic novel into the movie..mmg main perasaan jiwa raga abes la (biar jantan,betina apetah lg pondan nngis teresak2...hehe no hard feelings yall)

But wat i want to review the most is abt the true love....it felt so really pure...the guy mmg btol2 cintakan the girl (biarpon maya karin pkai tdung ala2 suke ati aku la cane nk pkai pon..haha)...and it makes me wonder,if there's actually such love in this world? I asked,and i think i hv the answer....yes there is...and ull b lucky enough to end up sehidup semati with tht one true love....which i hv yet to find....so mulai skrg..kna berubah! Berubah mnjadi izzah...

*nk g jln tar cr tdung dn ank tdung...hehe ;)...peace yall...nk tdo mimpi kn the one....or maybe mimpi papa lg best kot...bole tgk muka yg dh lm x nmpk.. ;)

Yaasinnn

2011-12-05T00:46:00.001+08:00

Rindu papa.. ;(

S P A C E

2011-12-01T01:38:00.001+08:00

Let me find the happiness
Let me have some space
Give me some chances
To find the love i've lost!

Dear friends..dont judge me...do support me in ways u might think impossible..but i dont want all this either... ;(

Not an ordinary love

2011-11-30T23:16:00.001+08:00

It's not easy to ask someone u love to pray for you to find the love u've lost....

Soldier of love

2011-11-29T01:19:00.001+08:00

I've lost the use of my heart
But I'm still alive
Still looking for the light
And the endless pool on the other side

It's the wild wild west
I'm doing my best
I'm at the borderline of my faith
I'm at the hinterland of my devotion
I'm in the front line of this battle of mine
But i'm still alive

I'm a soldier of love
Every day and night
I'm a soldier of love
All the days of my life
I've been torn up inside
I've been left behind

Tall I ride
I have the will to survive
In the wild, wild west
Trying my hardest
Doing my best to stay alive
I am love's soldier
I wait for the sound
I know that love will come
I know that love will come
Turn it all around
I am lost but i don't doubt
Tall I ride
I have the will to survive
I n the wild, wild west
Trying my hardest
Doing my best to stay alive
I am love's soldier
I wait for the sound
I know that love will come
I know that love will come
Turn it all around
I'm a soldier of love
I'm a soldier
Still wait for love to come
Turn it all around
I'm a soldier of love
I'm a soldier

Adakah sesiapa tercipta?

2011-11-24T00:52:00.003+08:00

Hati kecil sentiasa berdoa...
Semoga cepat dipertemukan oleh NYA..
Makin hari makin jauh...
Berkat doa yang bersungguh...

Dekatkanlah dengan yang tercipta untukku...
Jauhkanlah dengan yang pernah mendampingiku...

Bukan niat di hati untuk melupa..
Sekadar mahu melupakan siapa..
Siapa yang pernah menyapa..meluka..melepa...
Cukup lama hati bertapa....
Mungkin tiba masa menyapa...

Ya Allah...hati kecil sentiasa bertanya...
Adakah sesiapa tercipta?
Tercipta untuk menjaga...
Separuh jiwa yg luka......

Let me heal in time....even if it's gonna take my entire life

2011-11-22T10:13:00.002+08:00

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
Seems somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Truth hurts?

2011-11-20T00:26:00.001+08:00

Truth hurts...it is...undeniable..as much as u wanted to avoid knowing the answer/truth,deep inside u actually knew......hmmm i guess it's true tht things happened for reasons....and when it does,dont dig the reasons behind...u'll be surprised of the answers u'll get...stop asking for answers as u know it'll hurt u even more....no doubt abt it

Hmm...just some random thoughts late at nite...just for u to know,i just hate the whole idea of it....everything! From the beginning till the end

Jamal feat malique..

2011-11-17T14:22:00.001+08:00

"Aku maafkan kamu,tak perlu kita bertemu cukup kau tahu yg aku maafkan kamu,tolong teruskan hidup jangan sebut namaku.."

State of mind....

2011-11-17T00:36:00.001+08:00

Hmmm...dont leave me feeling uncertain...

Kenapa nak 'Someone Like You'

2011-11-13T21:26:00.003+08:00

Maybe what I am about to blog ni boleh menimbulkan ketidaksetujuan dan kebencian di kalangan rakan2 rapat2...yg mmg dr awk tidak bersetuju dgn so called kisah cinta aku yg bertahun2 lamanya.....but..I think this is deeply what I felt inside...and I might be wrong...but whatever it is, it's a free country, I may say whatever I want and you may judge and criticise, no problem at all.

Ada yg cakap..lagu Someone Like You nyanyian Adele is so not right...why must u find someone like your ex if he actually left you and marry someone else. Hmm....I somehow thought abt this, I took it seriously, I sit and think, is it true that you should not find someone like him....? maybe true maybe not...up to you to decide. But to be honest, for me, it's definitely not wrong to find someone like 'you'...

You and me once shared a life, shared a history, shared common things, shared a lot of things, spoke the same language, see the same thing, have the same thoughts..but what made an end to the rship, you actually chose someone else and marry her....THE END

But...was it really an END? That's what made you the culprit, no doubt about it...I hate you for doing that...I do..I really do.....but it doesnt change any facts that you once loved me, you once cared abt me, you once listen to me, you once were there when I need you, you were once my world, my spirit, my strength....

So I can actually find someone like you.....someone who can love me just like how you love me......up to this moment, none resembles you...how I wish I can find Someone Like You....

Out Of My Head

2011-11-12T16:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I feel
Like I am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of possibility
However it may roll
Give it a spin
See if you can somehow factor in
You know there's always more than one way
To say exactly what you mean to say

Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad then its time you spoke up too

Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad then its time you spoke up too

Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an invitation
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad
Then its time you spoke up
Too

Owh my hero

2011-11-06T21:56:00.001+08:00

Jiwa kacau hari ni disebabkn hero!

Scene 1:sembang dlm watsapp group psl hero
Kwn: sian hero...kna potong kaki...bla bla...curi ikan..bla bla ..ada org jmpa.jln pkai 2 kaki blkg je..bla bla
Aku: xnk tau...xnk bc..sape2 post kt fb aku x bc pon...x snggup,nnt nngis

Kat rmh maklong...selak2 buku kt rak..nk cr bhn bacaan..nmpk mastika ..alih2 mastika tu,gmbr hero front pg...uwaa...dh nmpk kucing tu tade kaki.. ;(

Scene 2:kt t.lite..dgr red fm
Ttbe teringt hero...tersyahdu jap..
Dj: here's enrique iglesias..hero!

Uwaaaa...how ironi...xnkkkkk...sedihhhh
:((

P/s : xnk ltk gmbr hero sbb x smpai ht nk google pon...laknat la kau manusia yg kejam menganiaya binatang kesayangan rasullulah..

It's a NO

2011-11-05T02:43:00.001+08:00

Please expect a NO from me...couldnt handle another heart breaking scene...

:|

Wondering..

2011-11-04T01:39:00.001+08:00

I'm wondering how you're doing....bet u're doing just fine and great...dont know if u ever wonder about me or not....

Mode: sigh.....,

Kyo watashi no haha wa tanjyobi desu

2011-11-04T00:53:00.001+08:00

Owhhh shadap yuhhhh...

Ok xde motif....sj je tu..

Watashi wa dokushin desu ;(

2011-11-01T23:53:00.002+08:00

Kore wa Nippon no kokki desu.
(Ini adalah bendera Jepun)

Hait...

Watashi wa kyo Nihonggo no jugyo ikimashita.
(Hari ni saya pergi kelas bahasa Jepun)

Ok...kesimpulannye..Nippon no kokki to Nihonggo no jugyo adalah berkait rapat (paham? tak paham xpe)

Bendera Jepun di atas melambangkan hari saya hari ini (ok wa tatau nak tulis cane dlm bhsa jepun..sensei belom abes ajar..hahaha)

Nampak tanda merah bulat tersebut? Saya dan bendera itu ada persamaan hari ini..jadi semua adalah serba tak kena....haih...once upon a time...I seek attention from 'some ppl'...but I dont have that 'some ppl' anymore nowadays....sigh...

Watashi wa dokushin desu ;(
Watashi wa koibito gaimasen....

p/s : Entry ini memberi idea tuk wa tulis dalam bahasa Jepun..practice makes perfect...thanks...

Masterchef

2011-10-30T01:15:00.001+08:00

Ok...aku rasa aku nk jadi chef jela ingat....bos! Nah surat resign 23jam...(minus sejam berpk.. ;p)

Btw...arini sabtu,tade aktiviti...err byk mnggu dh sabtu ahad xde aktiviti..al maklumlah,i got no commitment towards anybody (in other words,gua single ler..) plus kwn2 dh makin kurang (they got married,and they spent their time with fam..duhhh...haha)..

So kerana kelapangan ms yg byk,arini aku feeling2 masterchef..tghari i made grilled vege and salmon..and mlm i made fettucine cooked in mushroom soup,low fat milk and herbs with grilled capsicum,tomato and broccoli (ok im suck at naming food)

Gmbr salmon x smpt amek...ada gmbr fettucine je..

Kisah penjual insurance..

2011-10-28T14:58:00.001+08:00

Ok gua xde point..sj je tulis...cita2 nak tulis drama...bertajuk 'Indahnya Hidup' diinspirasikan dari kisah kehidupan....hahaha...ok dat's funny (indah abes idup gua..huhu)

Kisah ku dgn jejaka putrajaya dan penjual insurance...ok ini kelakar...adeh xleh tahan...

Kpd yg tertanye2...kisah ini tiada yg berkaitan dgn yg hidup atau yg mati..

Sekian bye!

Semua mcm x sama...

2011-10-28T00:28:00.001+08:00

Semua mcm x sama
Semua mcm x kena
Benci bila terasa
Rindu pula membara
Tak dpt ditahan kadang kala
Tapi apakan daya
Dikenang tak guna

Sedih pilu tak dpt dikata
Bagai hati dibelah dua
Tatau lg apa perlu dipena
Habis semua sudah dijaja

Entah kenapa emosi meraja
Bagai ditusuk sembilu padahnya
Slmt mlm hati berkata
Moga bertemu di mimpi yg fana

I wish I could see YOU

2011-10-27T01:15:00.001+08:00

I walked by a picket fences...
I plucked a flower..it smells great
I keep walking...
Wishing I could see a flock of birds..flying freely
The sky's clear blue..
The air's blossoming fresh
The bird's chirping happily

Wish it could be heaven
Wish it could be my home sweet home
Wish it could be what I have always hoping and wishing for

In the fairly good weather...
In the sky's clear blue...

I wish if I could see you....

Happy sunday it is supposed to be...

2011-10-23T11:36:00.001+08:00

I blog almost abt everything...and most of the time i blog when im down (err i think im down quite frequently..;p) hahaha...

How i wish today would be a perfect sunday..do u rmmber my lst entre abt friendship? Well i guess not everyone could be best for u to be friend with....hv h ever felt like,u hv tried ur best to fit in the friendship,but it doesnt to be working out...well i think it just happened to me..i tot men (in this case,maybe only half men) is easier to be friend with,but lg emo mengalahkn pempuan...well i guess maybe u do not know me enough to judge me..so i guess it's true tht it should not even be called friendship between us..

Hey..i may sound harsh and say things upfront,but only at tht moment...and a second after,i wud just forget and let go...so who is making a big deal here?

Friends do not talk at ur back,i would appreciate if u say things at my face...better isnt it...lg2 skng makin menjengkelkn...mngumpat guna bb/iphone...just right in front of ur face...thts totally sick i tell u...

Haih dahla..pk pon bkn dpt ape..dpt sakit ht lg ada

P/s : today is papa's birthday....happy 66th bday pa...al fatihah

Paranormal activity

2011-10-21T10:31:00.001+08:00

U can turn out to be selfish when u least expected it or without realising it - reminder to myself..

I find this is so much true..in true friendship,u would want to please a friend,comfort them,lend a hand when in need....but will they do the same to you? I guess it's not a matter of doing things and expecting something in return...it's a matter of how sincere u are in friendship...and if u are sincere enough,but ur friend doesnt seems so...i would say it's better to keep a distance...not leaving,but keep a gap...

*mode takot tgk cite paranormal mlm td..haha

Nak cuti lg esok pleaseee

2011-10-20T01:07:00.001+08:00

Dah pkul 1am...and tanak g kje sok bole x? Mls nye la hai....nowadays byk aktiviti ngn 6jahanam...good tho..terisi ms yg x brpe byk ni...haha...kt ofis jmpa,kt idaman jumpa..dlm watsapp smbng,jmpa lg kt idaman,,,,men badmnton plk...tgk wyg lg skng...haha

But..i think i could call them true friends...eventho ada jgk pe'el nye msg2 kdg..but standard la tu kn..,i guess friends are the closest i hv besides fam now...i cherish each day i hv knowing tht i still got friends to support when im in need..

Thanks friends!

Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts Official Video

2011-10-15T22:12:00.000+08:00

I dont wish to even remember..but cant help from posting this lyric

2011-10-15T20:58:00.001+08:00

Jar of hearts

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half-alive
Now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long
Just to feel alright
Remember how to put back
The light in my eyes

I wish I had missed
The first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back you don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

Be the boss urself or paris hilton!

2011-10-12T10:17:00.001+08:00

Betol la some says..lg bijak pndai seseorang tu,x semestinya they have the right actions,the right attitude...and the right things to say....this is somehow true...or i would rather say,maybe those who doesnt see where they want to be prone to do or think in a negative way...sume nk negative...sume nak rebellious...and sume action nk ikot kepala sendiri...never see the other side of the grass (eh btol ke perumpamaan omputih ni? Haha..entam!)...but the point is,living in community,working in a team...and somemore when u r serving for the ppl and ctry,there are things u might not wanna do so frequently...i cn be rebellious at times as well,but not alll the time...as i always believe,if we are positive,it might help u to go tru any hard times...i'allah..

Hehe...penatla jd negative all the time...and penat jgk la klu asek nk peha bila dah bg betis...klu x bole work under supervision,asek nk rebellious,asek nk amek kesempatan,asek nk pk org lain slh,asek nk merungut bila kna buat sumtin hard or out pf scope,asek nk complaint all the time...be the boss urself...or lg snng jd paris hilton! Better isnt it?

Ok mode tah pape....kacau mood baek gua pg2 rabu yg hening ni..

p/s: this is my blog,and i can say watever i want isnt it?

I dont keep any grudges...

2011-10-10T10:16:00.001+08:00

Its so not me to hold any grudges towards anyone....how hurt I could be...how cruel anyone could treat me...I would just let go...it's not my call to give revenge...i dont do such things...u cn treat me bad...u can say me things...fine with me...it's up to u....

Im not here to punish nor judging...i always believe in karma..it happens to anyone,even to myself....so deep inside i hv accepted anything tht happens,and i shall just move forward to mend those things...

Apahal?

2011-10-10T01:04:00.001+08:00

Apahal ni? I have let go..and u should too..

Sedihla plk....

2011-10-07T14:15:00.001+08:00

Adoi...out of nowhere,mood bleh down plk arini...ni sume gara2 komen gmbr my fren kt fb tu....gmbr tngn dia n bf je sbnrnye....tp kacau emosi sngguh...satu..mungkin sbb sume org cm dh agk settle down...dua,..org dok tnye2 aku jgk la kt komen2 tu bila nk kawen bagai...tiga...mngkin sbb aku cm dah x brpe yakin akn berjumpa the one....adoi...agk kronik la...di ptg jumaat ini...dgn mood mls keja ni...terbaek lyn perasaan...*sedih*

Tahla...ssh nk ungkap ape dlm ht ni...mmg aku terus berdoa ditemukan jodoh...tp deep inside aku dh redha pon if ketentuan NYA aku ditakdirkan seorang diri smpai mati....sigh...

:(

Is there anyone like u?

2011-10-07T08:26:00.001+08:00

"Someone Like You"

I heard that you settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Mimpi indah..

2011-10-07T00:46:00.001+08:00

Sy mau tdo dan mimpi yg indah...bole x?

Favouritisme?

2011-10-02T22:38:00.001+08:00

Hello parents...i think i wud like to dedicate this entry to all parents...pls feel free to object any of my statement and defend with yours...i might b wrong or maybe u might be wrong..we dont know...

Btw...i guess wat i wanted to blog is based on real life experience...to all parents,do u hv this attitude called favouritisme..? Do u ever feel like u love 1of ur son/daughter the most compared to the rest of ur kids? And to all daughters/sons...hv u ever felt u r least favourite among all siblings?

Somehow...i think in real life,this situation does exist...parents might be denying and kids might be parano-ing...hurm how i wish tht parents should not hv this kind of special treatment towards the 'one'.. He/she will get anything..even if u dont ask for it,u'll def get it...and those the least fav...dont ever think of asking anything...def u wont be getting any even if u beg for it...

Sorry,kinda emotional....hurm...ive lost words..i would rather not to think bout it..how i wish someone could really listen to wat i said..almost anything and everything...just like old times..

Missing....someone... ;(

P/s: pls mind my entry this time...ive lost my mind for a moment and dont know wat to think of..

Ikhlas kan la hati mu...

2011-09-30T01:28:00.002+08:00

An hour ago marks exactly 15hrs being in the office. I just got home 30 mins ago (now is 130am peeps), took bath, isya' and then amek thinkpad...bukak lg...dgn tujuan nak sambung keje up till 3am..then only to sleep . Why cant I have a decent and peaceful life? 9-5 working hours (now also 9-5 working hours tp tak pnh blk pkul 5 pon), someone to love and spend time with, and earn all the money u need in the world? (rezeki tak datang bergolek yalll)...sigh...itu semua mimpi belaka...sekian!

BTW...recently byk cases where those penyangak yg tak layak hidup di muka bumi ini hit your car, then beat u up, then hijack all ur money together with ur car. So ms nak drive back just now, I was quite afraid jgk la...yela..lady driver driving alone at this hour, of course I'm afraid, kalau jadi pape tatau nak buat ape dan nak contact sape pon....mesti tau2 dah kuar paper muka surat depan dah esok..(Astaghfirullah...ya Allah lindungi la hambamu ini..amin). So tadi pk jgk nak lalu jalan mn..kalau nak cpt balik should use DUKE, but kalau nak byk traffic which is better la at this hour to avoid org langgar and no one to help u should use LDP then MRR2, but disebabkan sgt letih, just pk nak smpai awal, so decided to use DUKE. Alhamdulilah selamat sampai la...but just while driving td mmg cuakness la jgk..sbb kereta jarang2 jgk..and kalau ada penjahat langgar blkg pon takde org nak tolong..ms driving tu dok usha2 je kete dr blkg..kalau agak2 cam mencurigakan siap pk cane nak buat...subhanallah..jangan la hadapi apa2 situasi mcm tu...mntak la dijauhkan...

Hurm...cam tade point plak blog kan..tahla..letih sgt kot...tatau nak cite kat sape..so cite la kat sini..sape2 rs nak bc, bc la eh..tak suka jgn bc..hehehe...ermm..I think I better continue my work and yes, I'm not happy with my job currently it's killing me inside out..jd sape2 kalau ada kerja kosong tu...roger2 la..wanted to opt for lecturing, but tgk la..at this hour pon dok sebokkan kerja..bile nak apply nye kan...not to say weekdays, weekends pon mcm ni ok....haih...ikhlas kan la hati ini..cepat2 la dpt opportunity lain..amin.. nite all!

Aku pernah...

2011-09-25T02:14:00.001+08:00

Pernah

Pengalaman mengajarku
Jangan mudah meluahkan isi hatiku
Tapi bila ia melamarku
Senyuman ayumu hatiku luas terbuka
Yang kuidamkan musnah
Yang kugenggam terpisah

Aku pernah, jatuh cinta
Kerana cinta diriku merana
Aku pernah bahagia
Kata manisnya buat ku terpedaya

Biarkan aku temankan pilu
Haruskah cinta oh kejam padaku
Uhh yeahh

Kini mula ku terasakan
Degupan hatiku mula rasa oh gelisah
Kehadiranmu ku mengharapkan
Akan menghilangkan kegelapan di hidupku
Kau yang seharus yang pertama
Agar terakhir selamanya

Yang ku lupa, kisah yang lalu
Akan ku gubah oh hidup yang baru... uh yeah...
Kerana aku pernah... pernah yeah...

Kisah yang lama mengajar aku
Agar bahagia hidup bersamamu

Hey hey... Yang ku cinta...

Cuti cuti dunia?

2011-09-23T17:08:00.001+08:00

4:56pm...at office...staring at thinkpad screen feeling like numb tatau nk buat ape (bkn xde kje ye...tp terlampau byk kje smpai rs cam yer watever la)..and feeling hot! (err a/c ni tah npe x brfungsi ke aku je rs pns)....dlm kpla nk blk je pk...tetapi mlngnye ada kelas jepun plk kang at 730....trpksa tgu...yes im taking japanese class beginner level 1...dulu2 ms kt u.m dh amek,but then bodo lulus skdr ckup mkn je...haha...skng ni rs nk bljr blk plus im gonna get the cert...useful nnt (always bliv klu kite bljr,akan ada je gune nnt i'allah)

Eh ape aku ckp ni...ha tk kna mngena plk ngn tajuk...oooo nk tulis,duk kt ofis ni tade mood nk kje asek pk cuti2 dunia thun dpn je...huhu...so far dr feb to sept 2012 mmg pack btol holiday plan...mostly luar negeri ok...haha thanks to air asia "now everyone can fly even roti canai can fly"..,hahaha

Tatau bile nk trcapai cita2 nk travel alone arnd the world...if only i got the money and time to do so...bak kata dodi,smntara single enjoy la duit tu...guna buat ape yg kite suke...true somehow...tataula tade plan pon nk saving nk kawen pon..x nmpk cahaya pelamin pon...nmpk cahaya lampu plane track je...hahaha...tataula jah,bilatah nk bertemu...kot2 bertemu yg kaki jln pon best jgk...dh lm sgt solo ni...next time i know one,nk ckp i do je trus hahaha (ok lwk je tu...ada plk yg nk ckp marry me kt aku...huhu)...

Okla...nk pg merenung screen thinkpad lg...smbil merenung nsb diri dn ms hadapan...haha bye!

Berakhirnya satu percintaan...

2011-09-21T10:28:00.001+08:00

Classic piece...dh lama berakhir pon....cuma pg td trdgr kt suria.fm...trpksa google lyric...haha

Berakhirnya Satu Percintaan

Tak perlu kau nyatakan padaku
Curahan isi hati mu itu
Segalanya telah berakhir
Tak mungkin ku menerimamu

Hapuslah kenangan cinta lama
Angkara keterlanjuran cinta
Hentikan senda dan gurauan
Hanya menambahkan penyiksaan

( korus )
Walaupun berat hati ku melepaskan dirimu
Itu sudah suratan takdir
Mungkin tiada kuntuman cinta
Jambangan kasih terkulai akhirnya
Berakhirnya satu

Testing

2011-09-20T00:57:00.001+08:00

Hehehe...sbnrnye entry kt bwh ni nk testing new app from blogger...haaa br snng nk update blog from ipong...

Ok itu aje..ini adalah entry dlm entry..paham? Xpaham xpe..mak pon pening....(mmg tgh pening ni,asek pening 2,3 mnjak ni)

P/s : gmbr kt bwh adalah app tersebut

Hari hari penat keje

2011-09-20T00:49:00.001+08:00

Cetengok pkul brape kt gambr tu? Huhuhu pg ptg siang mlm ahad isnin selasa rabu asek2 kje...penat jgkla kpla otak ni sbnrnye...sigh..

Bkn xnk opt for other field...tp tahla ape mslh dlm diri ni...suka sgt menangguh2 perkara...skng ni if i dont get any opportunities within the comp,i would quit and try lecturing...ckp dh 800x dah..tp buatnye tdak pon...demla..ada cable x?

Dari 2006...lamanyaaa....

2011-09-19T02:51:00.000+08:00

ooouuuiii...lama sgt dah blog ni...dr 2006...pergh..lama tu..td..dah hampir nak click button delete...tataula..syg sgt nak delete sbnrnye...tapiiiii...kalau tak delete, i will forever be haunted with all the memories yg mmg dah terpahat lam kepala ni...aish...tahla...nak delete ke tak ..nak delete ke tak...hmmmm

but..tak sangka i keep the blog this long....and why i still keep the blog I'm not so sure..hmm..tahla..sukar la nak jangka apa dlm hati dan kepala ni....byk sgt perkara bermain di fikiran...kdg2 benci..kdg2 sayu..kdg2 rindu...tp tula dia..nak kenang ape lg pon tatau...

and ape aku meracau tgh2 mlm ni pon tatau....dah pkul 2.30am ok!!...ptt online tgh2 mlm ni nak buat keje yg tak pnh abes yg amat mengstresskan diri sepanjang tahun....tp ape aku buat ni...ni sume sbb dok bc blog ex-tunang kfcm la ni (pengakuan ikhlas seorang blogger...ahahha)...dok tgk old entries dia..suddenly tertengok old entries sndiri...from year 2006...gile ke...2006 aku final yr kat UM...hahaha..and skang..aku dah 28..

ok sudahla...lg lama meracau ceni..lg sakit jiwa sendiri..tgkla...sok2 lusa kalau wujud lg blog ni....nnt aku pk kan dalam2 apekah kesan dan akibat sebelum aku decide nak delete ke tak...kalau ikot hati nak delete sume perkara maya ttg diri ini...perlu ke? eh tahla....takleh pk dah...sj bg soalan2 menjana minda ...hahaha..bye!

puas hati...

2011-09-19T00:07:00.003+08:00

Hmmm..lega rasa hati...ape gune simpan kalau bole bikin sakit hati...tatau la ape mslhnye...mind ur own life..mind ur own bisnes..kalau syg kononnye dlu dah jadi benci...lu bole angkat kaki..wa pon tak ingin lagi...eiiiii....tahla..bikin panas je mlm hari yg dingin ni...

gua doa lu sukses dan bahagia bro...!!

p/s : f*ck la...apa hal tah...tp makin lama makin rs annoyed...did i mess with ur life now? did i????? skit pon tak kacau......

Mana dorang jumpa?

2011-09-17T21:44:00.001+08:00

Hmm...recently...byk plk wedding invitations....biasalah..bila byk wed invitations ke org brtunang ke,mula la resah gelisah tak tentu pasal...actually bosan je nk blog bout this..sbb...org pon akn ckp,soon akn jumpa i'allah bla bla bla...and talking abt tht...itula sbb npe i blog bout this topic while watching desperate housewives...haha irony ke?x sgt la kan.... ;p

Anyways...i always got this in mind,mn org2 ni jumpa partner msg2...i mean mn knal...when i said i hv no bf..tatau mn nk jmpa,respond plg lazim diterima....ala...xkn xde,mesti ramai kt ofis itu ini..then they wud say im too picky....to be honest,x perlu smpai part picky lg pon....tade pon org nk d pilih...

Hmmm...entahla...sampai one point i dont believe i wud meet one..sbb i dont know where to meet...kt ofis,mostly bengkok...kt fb,mostly kwn2 skolah/u/ofis which dah kawen beranak pinak pon....and plg mnedihkn bila rs,maybe sbb physical kot thts why tade org nk knal or even pndang....tp tataula...org ckp dat is def not the reason....so plg relevant nye...mngkin jodoh dah mati or balasanNya atas segala khilaf...wallahualam

Above all...i dont think i can do much pon...im not looking (should i?)...im not even hoping.....so what i cud only do is just praying to Allah...if destined tht im gonna be unmarried for life....hati ni dah lama redha....maybe thts wht HIS plan is....

Ayoo....why do i blog bout this,i hv no idea.....but i know responds are going to b typical...nothing is more depressing than being 28 and single...soon to be 3 series...lg depress...

Ye...ape2 la...sblm meleret,i better stop now...lyn housewives yg desperate lg best

Beribu sesalan....sigh.. ;(

2011-09-16T00:35:00.000+08:00

Ku susuri malam ini
Yang tidak berbintang sunyi sepi
Juga rembulan dah menghilang
Dalam kelam ku sendiri

Ku mencari hembus bayu
Yang selalu berbisik madah rindu
Kini membisu dalam sayu
Tidak ku temu suaramu

Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku
Di saat ku perlukanmu
Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu
Di sini ku tersedu-sedu

Setelah cinta pergi
Ku mengusung duka ini diiringi
Kisah janji dimungkiri lagi

Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku
Di saat ku perlukanmu
Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu
Di sini ku tersedu-sedu

Setelah cinta pergi
Ku mengusung duka ini
Diiringi

Kisah janji
Dimungkiri
Dimungkiri

Sia-sia ku
Mencintaimu
Setia padamu
Percayakanmu

Sebak dadaku
Retak hatiku
Luka jiwaku
Dihiris pilu

Sia-siaku
Mencintaimu
Setia padamu
Percayakanmu

Sebak dadaku
Retak hatiku
Luka jiwaku
Dihiris pilu

Alone.....

2011-09-14T14:30:00.000+08:00

I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here the room's pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though
Alone

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone

You don't know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight
You don't know how long I have waited
And I was gonna tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown
Alone

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone

How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
Alone, alone

I want to escape

2011-09-11T01:58:00.000+08:00

Rasa macam penat la...rasa mcm nak escape...nak get away from this heart breaking world..hurmm...nak pegi island where there's only peace available...tp pegi sorang2 pon sakit jiwa jgk...haih tahla...i need a break like seriously.... ;(

I wanna know what love is...

2011-09-10T01:21:00.000+08:00

I gotta take a little time

A little time to think things over

I better read between the lines

In case I need it when Im colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain

I don't know if I can face it again

Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far

To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is.....

I want you to show me......

I wanna feel what love is.....

I know you can show me......

Al-fatihah

2011-09-03T02:51:00.001+08:00

What a gloomy day today...sedihnya... :(..one of my closest fren,ikin br je kehilangan ayahanda tercinta...sedih sgt rs ht...i can feel what she felt...perasaan yg tkleh digambarkn....hmm..i was in her shoes 2 years back in 2009...bulan syawal jgk...ive lost papa...sedihnya ms tu tatau nk dgmbrkn...jd numb and lost for few days.....klu terkenngkn,trnmpk,trpk,terlnts mngenai apa2 je tntng arwah...hati terus sebak air mata bercucuran...ms tu yassin sj jd pneman...kpd yg tiada mhupun yg msih ada dan menangisi kehilangan...and today once again i felt the sorrow...how i wish i cud always b with her to comfort her,just how i wanted to be comforted when i lost my dad...moga2 arwah dtmptkn dikalangan beriman...i'allah...al fatihah...

~~ in memories of Sallahuddin b omar ayahanda kepada siti norashikin sallahuddin~~

Is it love or lust?

2011-09-01T02:47:00.000+08:00

How to know if your Boyfriend or Husband really loves you or not - Signs to know that he is not Faking

By Anamika S

How do I know if he loves me

A friend of mine wanted me to write an article on how to know if your Guy truly loves you. I have been asked this question several times and it is quite a difficult one to answer as many guys are quite skillful at making the girls believe that they are indeed in love when he is not. But still if you watch him carefully you may find signs to identify if your husband or boyfriend is in love with you or not. I am making an attempt to answer the below requests on this subject.

How to know if my Guy really loves me

How to know the true feelings of my Boyfriend

Are there any Clues to confirm that my Man is in Love with me

What are the symptoms for identifying that a Guy is falling for me

How to know if my Boyfriend is serious about me to want a committed relationship

How to know that your Guy really loves you?

Date Like A Man: What Men Know About Dating and Are Afraid You'll Find Out

How to know if a Guy loves you

Majority of men are quite skillful at relationships and may make you feel wonderful and leave you overwhelmed by your own conclusions that he is in love with you even if he is a jerk faking it. To know if he has truly in love with you pay proper attention to his behavior and body language. You may find some signs of his love and level of commitment.

He treats me like a Queen: An acquaintance of mine said that her guy treats her like a Queen and there is no way he would cheat her behind her back. It is every woman’s dream to be treated like a Queen. But the truth is that it is not a guarantee that he is really in love with you or not cheating behind your back. There can be many reasons a guy may be extra nice to you. Some of them can be

He has the money and he needs to spend it some where.

He wants to keep a good image in front of you, his friends or family.

He is guilty that he is cheating you behind your back.

You give him what he wants so he rewards you with indulgences.

He says ‘I love you’ often: Men often exploit the emotional side of the Women by saying the three words or even convincing the woman that indeed he is in love with her. Many men use fake declarations of love to get sexual favors from the woman. The truth is if a Guy says he is in love he would be saying in many ways. Many things can reveal his feelings for you including the tone of his voice or look in his eyes or touch. So when a Guy declares that he loves you notice his behavioral patterns to decide how sincere your boyfriend is.

Is he saying ‘I love you’ when he wants to have sex with you

Is he saying it as a response for your declaration of love

Does he normally say these words to all and sundry

Does he say ‘I love you’ when he is drunk

Does he declare his love even when you are not in the best talking terms

Does he look into your eyes when he says it

Does he declare his love to you in front of his family or friends

He says that he wants to marry me: Declaration of love and Marriage is one of the most used tactics by Guys to get women to bed. Most women are emotional fools and fall for these tricks. If a Guy is indeed in love with you he should not have any problem with making the commitment to you by getting engaged by putting a ring on your finger in front of his family and friends. He may even brag about you to his family and friends. Changing of topic or ignoring it when you want to discuss about your future with him is not a positive sign of a healthy relationship. Keep a careful watch on the time and situation a Guy makes a promise for marriage when you analyze if he is indeed serious about you to get into a committed relationship.

Does he promise marriage when he wants to get intimate with you or want sexual favors from you

Does he make ‘his world’ know that he and you are a couple or is he hiding you inside a closet

Does he have any solid plans about Marriage

Does he promise to marry but keep on postponing it

Did you guys get engaged

Does he love to go out with you in public or introduce you to his friends and family

He spends time with me regularly: This is a very positive sign when you are in a relationship. If your Man is spending loads of time with you and find excuses to spend time with you he may be serious about the relationship. Some guys may not be very comfortable expressing feelings of love but they may spend every available opportunity with you because they love you. He may even share your favorite pastimes even though he does not like them as wants to be with you. If a Guy is in love he may even travel for an hour to steal a few moments with you. If your Boyfriend is in love with you no matter how busy he is he always have time for you and is always attentive about your needs and priorities. He takes an active interest in matters related to you including your habits and likings if he loves you. When you are down he also becomes upset and puts all the efforts to make you happy. You may also often catch him looking you when you are around if he is in love with you. If your Man has excuses for not having the time with you beware but a goes out of his way to do things for you then it is a very positive sign of a good relationship. Here are certain signs you can watch.

Is he happy when spending time with you and smile often

Is he spending time with you because otherwise you would nag

Is he spending time with you because he wants sex

Does he spend time with you outside the 4 walls too

Does he frown often when spending time with you

Does he at least call and talk to you for some time when he cannot see you

Does he have eyes only for you when he is with you?

He is full of Praises for me: If a guy compliments a girl often it is a positive sign in a relationship. If he tells you how he loves your smile or the way you are in all probability he adores you! You can take his compliments seriously if they are genuine reasons why he is attracted to you. But when he says that you are like Miss World when you are fat and obese be sure that you have got something he wants and once he gets it he wont even spare you a second look. Go ahead and check

Is there something he wants from me? It can be anything including sex, money or promotion

Is he a seasoned flirt and behave with every girl in the same manner

We talk a lot: Communication is a very positive sign in a relationship. If your Boyfriend is concerned about you and is always asking about your life and interests than talking about his likes, life or passions then it is a sign that he may be interested in you. A man who is involved with his relationship will always find an excuse to call you or be with you be it to share a thought, or ask your opinion or because he misses you. If the Guy is even nice to your friends and family and have positive interactions with them it is a positive sign that he loves you to even care about the people that you care for. If a guy gives more importance to his friends or work even if you are sick or in need of him shows his lack of interest in you. If on the other hand if a Guy is all talks about himself or do not communicate regularly then he is not the right guy to be with. There are several reasons why a woman may dump a man and this is a very valid one. However you can analyze some behavioral patterns to decide on how good a communication you share.

After you have had a fight do you sit down and resolve the problem or do you ignore it

Do you know what your Guy is doing and where he is most of the time

Does is share everything openly with you

Do you guys communicate regularly by whatever method it takes be it in person, by mail or by phone?

Does he still talk to you like normal even after you have refused to sleep with him or he takes his time to call you again

Does he break up or threaten you to part ways with you after you refused to sleep with him

How does he behave or talk when he is angry at you? This is the time to watch out and be ready to face the truth.

He buys me Gifts and remembers all special Occasions: Men are not very good at remembering dates. But if he is in love he will not forget any special occasion. If your Boyfriend do not remember your Birthday, Anniversary or Valentines Day and give you a thoughtless gift rest assured that he does not care for you or interested in you. Sometimes Worse Gift Ideas are tolerated by Women but getting no gift is not forgivable especially when the guy keeps on declaring that he loves you. If a guy is all talks that he want to keep you in diamonds or want to retire with you to a good holiday destination or want to make money for you but cannot get you a gift on a special day then he is not for you. If he adores you he will remember even the tiny details about you. If he has a bad memory he will write it down in his diary or record it in his mobile so that he won’t forget a special day and makes all efforts to make the day memorable for his girl. Men in love with women will not let important events pass without celebrating it together. A man in love is a doer and just not a talker. You can check his behavior.

Is he all talks about what he want to buy you or how he want to spend time with you but does not do anything about it probably he is the wrong guy.

Does he remember special occasions on his own or you need to remind him of it

He gets you gifts because otherwise you would nag

What are his choices of gifts? Are they impersonal or picked up at the last minute or did he take his time out for choosing a nice gift for you. Or did he have a secretary or friend to shop for a gift for you?

To sum it up, If you want to know whether your Husband or Boyfriend loves you need to listen to your gut feeling or heart.

Back to reality

2011-08-31T19:32:00.000+08:00

Kuakui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu
Tapi kini ku sadar ku di antara kalian
Aku tak mengerti
Ini semua harus terjadi

Kuakui ku sangat sangat mengharapkanmu
Tapi kini ku sadar ku tak akan bisa
Aku tak mengerti
Ini semua harus terjadi

Lupakan aku kembali padanya
Aku bukan siapa-siapa untukmu
Kucintaimu tak berarti bahwa
Ku harus memilikimu s’lamanya

Kuakui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu
Tapi kini ku sadar ku di antara kalian
Aku tak mengerti

Welcome!

2011-08-26T16:15:00.003+08:00

Please come and visit me here...so you would know how I am doing without you around.....

TQ!

Hidup dalam kepura2an?? Is that what you think I feel?

2011-08-26T16:04:00.003+08:00

There's a mechanisme...
You wouldn't believe...
Could be a platform...
For you to feel...

Sad...grief...
Which could lead to heart breaking and depression..

I may live in denial...
Feeling I have could never be denied...
But..I'm sincere with what I feel..
Rejection that I gave...
Was for my good sake..
Either way....you are definitely happy..
Undeniable...

Why there's hatred when there's love...
Or there wasn't one actually?

I dont know...but you know it well.....
Dont express yourself virtually...
If LOVE now has turn to HATRED....
Tell to my face....
And never return....

Carboot sale this Sunday 7th Aug 2011 yall!

2011-08-01T16:01:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps...there will be exciting things happening in a few days away....We (myself and friends - Radhiah and Puteri) will be organising a carboot sale this Sunday, 7th Aug 2011 from 10am-4pm at No. 59, Jalan A1, Taman Melawati, 53100, KL for hari raya pre sales...pre loved items - clothes/handbags/shoes will be on sale at a very reasonable price tht everyone could afford...this is not a money making event,just to clear things and let go those items loved but seldomly used/never used....love to see those items on others.. I have created an event at my FB, feel free to drop by for more info...

The reason why we are having this event is definitely just to let go items that are way too many to keep, and by having the sale at reasonable price (u wont believe how cheap the price could be), it is hoped the new owner will appreciate and loved the items bought as much as we do, as from observation, if we simply give away those items, some time some people wont appreciate the items given and end up those items will not be used or not being taken care...this is not what we want our pre-loved items to be treated, at least if you spend some money, u will appreciate it more isn't it? ... :)...

See you guys there...

Penakut? Maybe I am.....

2011-07-01T11:49:00.000+08:00

Tak semua kau rancang akan berlaku
Mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku
Entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta
Mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja

Ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya
Ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku
Ini tidak adil
Untuk engkau bertanya jika ku mencintaimu juga
Tidak adil tidak adil baginya

Kau tak pernah cuba memahami aku
Cinta kau ucap tak pernah engkau tunjuk
Dan bila tiba saat ku kehilangan
Beban yang tak pernah cuba kau ringankan

Kau bukan milikku

Dan aku memang penakut
Mengakui cinta kepadamu
Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan
Bila bersamamu
Kau bukan milikku
Dan engkau pun tahu
Kau bukan milikku

Kisah Hati....

2011-07-01T11:47:00.001+08:00

Why is it so hard to end.....?????

Hatiku hatimu
Menjadi satu cinta
Ku rasa hadirmu menyempurnakan aku
Tapi cinta bukan milik kita
Semua harus berakhir

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini
Mungkin kita bersama
Nanti di atas sana
Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu
Selamanya

Tapi cinta bukan milik kita
Semua harus berakhir

The Loneliness

2011-05-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

Im sitting here
Thinking bout
How im gon-na do without
You around in my life and how am I
I gon' get by
I ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
You want the truth
Well boy im not alright
Feel out of place and out of time
I think im gonna lose my mind
I think that i will never love again
I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here its clear to see

Why does it always rain on me?

2011-05-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep tonight
Everybody saying everything's alright
Still I can't close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights

Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong.
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
I can't stand myself
I'm being held up by invisible men
Still life on a shelf when
I got my mind on something else

Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong.
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It's so cold
I can't sleep tonight
Everybody saying everything's alright
Still I can't close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights

Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong.
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It's so cold

Why does it always rain on me?
Why does it always rain...

Tah kemana menghilang....

2011-05-04T14:10:00.000+08:00

This is the only place that I could turn to when I'm down, things are rough lately back at home, it's hard to explain in text, and I tend to just keep things to myself, it feels so tense to just keep things to myself. And today we had a so called discussion (involves all the tears of course), I didn't go to work, instead only start working at 1130am.....

Since papa left us 2 years ago, this would be the most tense situation, I couldn't handle it anymore, things need to be fixed I supposed, and thats where all the so called discussions began. Eventually things supposed to work better, hopefully, but being alone, I felt so miserable to keep things to myself...I need an ear, to listen to me when I'm down. I dont have all that I need now, I dont....how I wish I could just be happy like before, how I wish I could have someone to listen to me..how I wish things at home could turn as normal as before...

I know I should turn to HIM, and he would always listen to me....Ya ALLAH, kuatkan la semangat ku....dan kembalikanlah kegembiraan yg tah hilang kemana skang..

Women drivers

2011-05-01T12:06:00.001+08:00

What i'm about to blog today simply to have all women drivers to think and ponder on their so-called-driving-skills. To cut the long story short,let me just put it in a point form...Below points should explain how typical women drivers drive on the road,this aint good points dear...these are what you guys should not be doing on the road.
1. Drivers appreciate if their so called co-pilot do not teach them how to drive, i.e give signal,there's a goat in front (like,excuse me,am i blind to see anything tht big??? Duhhhh). Simply means do not be a teacher in the car if u're not driving, you have trust issue here. The driver knows how to maneuver the machine,so cut the nag!
2. Do not stay on the left/right lane just bcause u need to turn left/right,eventhough your junction is like 2 football fields far. This is when signals are used for,other drivers should understand tht u need to take that junction peeps..
3. When the traffic light is about turn red,and happens you are in the middle of junction,do not just simply stay where u are and block drivers from other junctions to cross,find a spot where u can squeeze your car,there should be a space for your car.
4. When going out from a junction,do not straight away take the right lane,slowly go out,and signal to go to other lanes when possible. This is a suicidal attempt as you might not see cars coming on the right lane and you somehow hv to go out from the junction as drivers behind might honk you for being so called brave to wait for no cars coming and cross to the right lane (which normally would take forever to wait)

I am a woman, but i have to admit,these kind of attitude on the road doesnt help to improve road accidents and injuries,you are simply causing more. Be braved and chicken accordingly women!

I can't....

2011-04-22T10:14:00.002+08:00

I got all in mind while driving this morning, but now I am lost in words again.

It has always been a nerves wrecking and mind blowing knowing you are there still remembering about me...

You always gives me a creep....whenever u said you love me...

And each time you say your words....I tend to get drowning again....again..again...and again.... I'm weak..I have always been weak with you

Friends hated you...for doing this to me...but I do not blame them...they are not in my shoes,neither yours....

What I felt before has never changed a bit...never....

Memories of you and me never faded...I passes by places, it reminded me of you...I do some things, it reminded me of you....your scent so strong that I can spot the smell on others miles away.....it's too many to forget... I got a big spot in my brain keeping you still...everything..which refreshes by itself every second.

BUT.....

I JUST CAN'T....

I feel so touched (even everyone would prefer to call it STUPID) when you said you love me and you miss me still....

But....it's a merry go round...which has been spinning round and round from years back....I would say the system goes wrong when it keeps rebooting years to years..repeating to be spinning at the same spot same pace same condition same story each time...holding the story...keeping the same history.

I don't want to spin in the merry go round anymore... my head spinning that I think now I need to find a straight route to cure the headache....

You can still be in the merry go round, but you can shout out loud to others down below to fill in my spot...I choose to cure my headache...so that I wont puke on you...I dont want to mess you with my puke...it's not healthy for u and for me....

Until then, if you wish to keep the merry go round working, I wish you best of luck, I am pretty sure there's always a loyal passenger awaits you to spin the merry go round her entire life....keep her safe in your merry go round....

I had enough of ride...and I would prefer to not riding it again...doctor said I should cure my severe headache....even if it takes my entire life to heal...I opt for that....

Thanks for the ride....it's a ride of a lifetime I would say...I stamped the image in brain I would say, doc says nothing can be done to remove that.....

Haih...kenapa la....????

2011-04-22T10:13:00.000+08:00

Bila cinta kini
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa
Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Yang ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Bila engkau pergi Tinggalkanku

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Ternyata memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan

Kusebut namamu
di setiap doaku
Yakinkan setiap kenangan
tentangmu
Yang ku dapat
hanyalah bayanganmu

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan
Uuu…
Dalam harapan

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!

2011-04-20T14:52:00.002+08:00

Go F*CK HERSELF OFF, I don't need you, and so do you....!!!!!!

mind my language, but I dont think I could tolerate on this anymore......you are being selfish...and if you think I am being selfish as well, think twice, I aint got anything out of this, infact I will be the BAD ONES if I am so foolish to still opt to be around you.

I may be alone...but I may be at peace at least....

Jangan susahkan diri sendiri.....think a little bit wiser...you are an adult,and MARRIED....what other points should I stress here???????

NONE other is important, the above sentence explains it all..

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!

Under Construction

2011-04-07T20:50:00.000+08:00

Khalis Zyad

2011-04-06T13:28:00.004+08:00

Introducing new family member...Khalis Zyad...ehehe..dah sebulan dah Zyad br nak update kat blog...I think he was born on 5th Mar kot....kot la...tak ingat..now dah sebulan sehari.....Zyad is a smaller version of Irfan...tapi Zyad garang skit..I have a feeling he would be dominating Irfan nnt dah besar.....hahaha..but ape ape pon...Irfan sayangggg adik Zyad, nak ciom je 24x7...hahaha...cute...

Photog sipi sipi

2011-03-29T22:32:00.004+08:00

I am no master in photography...I snap, I edit, I judge the quality myself....so feel free to give any comments... ;). si Nasrah ade pre wed photoshoot kat Sek 7 S.a somewhere last 2 weeks kot, so setelah dilantik sbg photog sipi sipi..aku pon ikot sajala...hehe...snap mana yg berpeluang...the white room was not white...not in a good condition I would say...dinding kotor, lantai bertampal2 dan cuba di cat putih nak kaver, tp tak berjaya la of cos......it would be better if the white room is using canvas, so editing part would be lesser.....and I googled on how to edit the background, so my method might be wrong I dont know...hehe...but apa2 pon...good exposure tho.....

Tempat beradu...

2011-03-29T15:08:00.006+08:00

In search of bedroom and bathroom design....cant wait to design my bedroom, even if it costs me a fortune.... :P

Too ambitious am I? ;p

Too modern, not so suitable Yes? Macam best nak melepak...tp...mcm tah.....not so worth it for a long run, maybe

A stroll at a mall

2011-03-29T12:09:00.000+08:00

Dulu2 slalu berjalan dr hujung melawati sampai hujung mana2 la...nowadays dah jarang nak go jalan2 like before...

Dulu2 slalu g shopping complex yg agak kejauhan sptnya sunway pyramid,midval dan lain2...tp skng dah x g dah..blk2 ou (dkt ngn ofis) or jj/ww

Sebab:
1) tade motif
2) agak jauh nk g ,somemore sensorang
3) tade companion...

Benci jugakla asek terkenang ms lampau.....

Current addiction

2011-03-25T11:09:00.002+08:00

Was browsing for recipe of Salmon, then come across a blog psl recipe2 ni...ttbe ada idea nak tulis jgk psl current addiction now...SALMON! HAHAA... (omg I am now like full time housewife with 2 children, blogging about recipe..hahaha)

And just fyi, salmon is a natural source of Omega 3 and khasiat2 lain lg....so it's good to eat this type of fish 2,3 times/week.

Salmon cost me around rm10+ per pc eh....kalau kat Giant murah skit...kat jusco..mahal banyak...ahhaha..but beli mana2 pon sama..janji pandai cr ikan.. (omg, again I sound like mak mak..hahha....;P)

Semalam dah masak stim salmon with lemon and stir fried broccoli with asparagus...tp tak amek plak gambar cara2 memasak..so ada salmon jela kat bwh ni..nnt sok2 lusa bleh upload ok!...

Mr Tan

2011-03-22T23:21:00.003+08:00

Ape nak tulis eh? it's 1125pm and I'm still looking at the office stuff.....too many to settle, so little time....sigh...

Current location, is at my sis's house, mama's house is under reno, so we all moved here for a while...soon I'll be decorating my room...can't wait...

Heard some say....dah buat rumah tu, tak lama lagi kawen la tu....hahaha..ok statement tu agak funny..I will deco my room like I will never get married in another 10yrs...hahhaa....(hopefully not la).....but,I never know...sigh lg...

Ok I think I need to make a move ni...need to see 'Mr Tan' urgently.

Bye!

I dreamt of.....

2011-03-20T11:58:00.004+08:00

Mengapa tah 2,3 malam ni asek mimpi org yg sama....

Hurm.....mengapa agaknye....anyone knows the reason why we kept dreaming of the same person...? Ke sebab aku p Shah Alam td? hurm...tahla..

No reason why I should be remembering him anymore...dia pon dah selamat berbahagia dah skang...

Mimpi oh mimpi..janganlah kau temukan ku lg dgn nya...bwk la Stephen Rahman ke....better.. ;p

Okla..nak edit gambor..smlm g sek 7...jd photog sipi2 kepada nasrah....

17th Mar 2011

2011-03-17T23:25:00.003+08:00

Nothing in particular with this date...saja je ..ahahaha...

Tatau ape yg missing lately ni la...

I think I have less time spend with HIM & him... how regret....

Dat's definitely the reason why...

Hurm....tade idea actually nak blog about what....today after days of hectic this week, I managed to find some time to apply my planned leave in the system. 12-15 May nak ge Krabi and 3rd June nak pegi kenduri Nasrah kat Loq Staq...

Cant wait...

Ok tu je...skang agak boring tatau nak buat ape, rs cam nak buat keje (urghhh..perlu ke?) tapi malas...

Current location kat rumah my sis, layan ifan main plastesin...

Night all...

Mood : Lari

2011-03-08T10:04:00.003+08:00

10.05am Tuesday 8th Mar 2011
Location : Ampang Puteri Specialist
Condition : Flu (but tht's not the reason why im at the above location)
Mood : Lari

Dibangkang,derhaka hendaknya
Diikut,tetap salah di mata
Diguraukan,takot tersalah bahasanya

Saat ini,yg di lain alamnya diperlu,dirindu....

Bukan niat mengata,tapi hati tak tahan jadinya...

Yang Satu saja jadi tempat memohon
Kebesaran Mu kuminta supaya aku tak jadi umat yg derhaka...

Amin.
Kau lindungilah org yg ku sayang...

Too little too much

2011-02-28T01:42:00.001+08:00

Life is so unkind sometimes,and when times like this happened,felt so miserable that i think im such a loser in every single aspect,but somehow it's true indeed.

Being 28 and single is tough....
Being 28 and still earning below par is pathetic
Being 28 and fat,much more miserable...

Hurm maybe i asked too much and thankful too less...

Ya Allah i know u have had the best for me....give me some strength to get true my life...amin

Opportunity that's what they say....

2011-02-21T23:44:00.000+08:00

When we met the right person to love, when we are at the right place, that's the opportunity.

When we meet someone who makes you interested, it's not a choice, that opportunity.

Meet in an event is not an option, that too is an opportunity.

If we decide to love that person, even with its shortcomings, it's not a chance, it is a choice.

When we vote together with someone no matter what happens, it is a choice.

Even when we realize that there are many others. Even more interesting, more intelligent, richer than your mate and still choose to love him, that's the choice.

Feelings of love, sympathetic, interested, came as an opportunity to us.

But true love is eternal is the choice. Choices we do.

Work from home...

2011-02-21T12:08:00.003+08:00

Work from home today....errr..not exactly home, as my house right now is not a conducive place to work...renovation in progress, so I would rather be here to work....

brrrr...sejuk .....

ok gmbar kat bwh ni tade kene mengena..saja je upload, gatal!....ahahah

Blegrhhhhhhh

2011-02-18T00:01:00.002+08:00

Blerghhhh....lost in my own way....ahaha...tah pape tah...

Bilakah akan bertemu?

Tataula....nak cari pon malas.....

Jadi...tunggu jela..

Hmm....

Stress with work, life, surrounding, only have HIM to turn to now.....or else, I think I will be drowning....drowning with my own dilemma.....haih tahla..

Ok nak tido...bye

2013 nak p umrah....sekian!

Soalan malam ini, approx 40mins ago - "PERLU KE????"

Selamat hari kejadian

2011-02-15T00:44:00.002+08:00

Dulu ada hari penting selepas birthday kaklin dan sebelum valentine's day.....hari itu tetap penting bg diri dan keluarganya...but not for me anymore...

Just cant help from remembering.....so posted a monkey to wish u happy birthday.....have blast one with wifey,and little ones maybe.?

Need YOU??!!!

2011-02-10T15:03:00.002+08:00

Need you to know how am I doing, what am I doing, where am I going?

Need you to know how exactly I have become now? better or worst...?

Somehow I feel disturbed...

Hoping you to be totally vanish from my life...

Mind ur own business!

Langkawi 2011

2011-02-01T14:17:00.004+08:00

Pictures from Langkawi trip on the 28th Jan - 30th Jan 2011. Had a great getaway with the girls, pu3, rad, lina and hubby shah. Too bad the rest couldn't joined. Lets have it annually dear friends....

Let the pictures speak. Pictures are from my Nikon D5000

The art touch of me....

2011-01-23T03:42:00.003+08:00

Saturday and im all at home...haha...did something that i hv left so long....drawing!...i guess even not much of art left in me,i still got a touch... ;p...doing a favour for a friend....for a wedding guestbook...i will need to draw a few drawing so that guest could leave their finger print and sign...managed to draw 2 drawings from 9pm - 12am...let the pictures speak...will hv another 3 drawings done within this week bfore i leave to langkawi this weekend....feel free to commment ... :)

Sigh....i wrote in iphone...it didnt allow many pictures to be uploaded and even downloaded this app which costs me $1.99....pffttttt!!

P/s : mind the figures and strokes....suck in it...heeee

Pemain bola lisut german

2011-01-12T00:41:00.001+08:00

2011....i guess what i should do is just keep praying for Allah to send me the one....but my friend once said,prayer alone is not enough if u dont work it out...and what should i act do?advert myself?haha...definitely NOT....

Met quite a number of guys in life...err,only 4 specifically...but unfortunately all are b£(&&rd!!!..(figure it out urself)....i dont know why i keep knowing the wrong person...maybe i was not lucky enough as yet..eh tahla...mls nk pk sbnrnye...but it's like one after another...and dont know until when should i wait until i find the one.. Berserahhhhh....

P/s: pls take note,the above title secara tidak lansung ada kna mngena dgn entry....haha..

I miss him so much....

2011-01-04T00:07:00.002+08:00

Suddenly i remembered one conv with my dad when he was struggling before he passed away. On his bed, I look at him while holding his thin leg,and said,"pa,cepat sembuh nnt bole mkn mcm dulu...kurus sgt papa"....and he replied back with the deepest and honest words ever that i nver heard before..."tula...nnt papa dh sihat bole mkn mcm dulu"...miss him so much now... :(

Im glad i was there with him till the end..bwk dia g spital and all...at that point of time,i was working odd hours,start working at 3pm,so i could always accompany him to the hospital. There's one time,i was too tired and slept on the hospital couch while waiting for him.i was so deep into sleep tht i suddenly woke up and saw he was looking at me waiting for me to wake up....then he said,mcm lmbt je ni,p la blk dlu,nnt papa naik bas,omg....how unrealistic i am klu i left him then...i said it's ok,i cn always tell my bos tht im gonna b late...

Ya Allah, kau lindungi la papaku disana....tempatkan arwah di kalangan yg beriman...sesungguhnya amat berat rasa rindu,kau tabahknla hatiku....amin ya rabbal alamin...

:(

Perlu ke?

2010-12-10T03:05:00.002+08:00

Perlu ke?
X perlu pon xpe...

Nak tau ape lg?
Nak tau how miserably i could be?
No,thanks....

U dont need to know anything about me...
Just go to hell!...

Hate me?...yea pls do so....
Thats what i want...hate me as much as u could

Thanks...now i feel relieved knowing that u hated me....

Ahh what the hell...just go to hell!!!